A boy laughs in the distance.
A girl checks her makeup,
Blindly walk into a new school year.
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Thinking back on the fatal day,
Hearing the screeching tires,
I remember the way she looked.
So full of life.
I blame myself for what happened,
I blame my irresponsibility.
Had I waited two more seconds,
She would still be with me.
I remember the way that she laughed at my jokes,
And the way she smiled when I was foolish.
I remember how secure she felt,
When she was with me.
I told her that nothing would ever happen,
If we were together,
But now she’s gone.
She trusted me with her life,
But I failed.
I can still her scream,
I wish it were me that was gone.
I go through the thousands of reasons daily,
But in the end,
And she’s up there.
She was ready to live her life to the full potential,
And I wasn’t.
She had infinite options,
While I had no idea of what was going on.
Yet I ended her life,
Once full of possibilities,
And now gone,
Because of me.
The guilt I feel is enormous.
My friends don’t talk to me about it,
But I wish they did.
I don’t know what to do,
I feel lost.
It has been a long time since I looked to someone,
Other than her,
Now there is no one to talk to.
I look for my friends,
But they change the subject.
I look towards my family,
But they are too busy.
Finally I look to my side,
Hoping to see her,
But she never is.
I have nothing else to life for.
And self have made that painfully clear.
When I look in their eyes I see a sadness of a lost friend.
Soon I will be with her,
And all of the pain I have caused will stop.
Soon my friends will forget,
And my family will live on,
No longer bearing the shame of a murdering son.
A girl cries in the distance.
A boy tries to comfort her.
Clearly see the past,
And everything that had happened…
I don’t know if that will be the last line.